No is not a word

I came across this poem while searching for something on my computer -- I had forgotten that I'd written it, but I find that it still resonates today. It's a good reminder to say YES to life without reservation.

No is not a word

Asked to put another first,
No matter how I try
"Of course" springs from my careless lips
While in my heart, I sigh

No is not a word I know
So I hear me saying yes
Of course no problem you bet OK
I'd be glad to clean the mess

This lesson, shamed into me young
For the sake of being good --
It leaves a bitter aftertaste
And smothers me in should

No is not a word I know
But I love it all the same
Each time I tell You yes that's fine
I play a little game

Alright I say with these careless lips
That came with this stoic face
Going doing fussing fuming
I fasten my grudge in place

Careless lips say yeah, you bet
While to myself I keep
A stingy little sullen "but"
So sour it makes me weep

I was winning at yes (,but..) you betcha!
Until one day I woke - alone -
My love? My heart my dearest my God?!
The silence shattered by a moan

My lips are now more careful
In prayer they beg for this:
Just one more chance I pray, my Love
To gladly tell you YES

Of course no problem you bet OK
Your need is a gift to me
I'm glad You asked I really am
To serve with love -- it sets me free

The lesson is bitter it cuts so deep
That others cannot see:
When no is not a word
The one who pays is me

Comments

[Sandra]

Kathy,

Ooooo. You posted this precious bit on my birthday. As I read this, I did take note and notice that taking time to check-in to see whether a "yes" or "no" wants to happen/to be spoken is a better way for me to be. Honoring me, means I will be more likely to be honoring whomever I am speaking to.

Sandra J.